interview at 3!!

i have a interview at 3 today! hopefully i get it! at least i can wear scrubs and feel remotely important. lmao.

3 inches....n good stuff

Im so happy....well i stepped on the scale and nothing went down. So i busted out the measuring tape and my waist went down 3 inches!

And not only that, i have a job interview tomorrow, a legit one. It's not what i want to be doing but im all good, im just happy it's full time and gives me benefits. That's all that matters, and its in wailuku which is close to town. so i'm all good in the hood, i just hope the interview is simple, short and sweet and that i just get hired, bottom line.

I really hope things work out here on Maui...this is my home and i really wouldn't want to leave for blistering cold weather just for a chance to make it. Brian is all in for moving, and even volunteered to move before me to get things ready there before i move up...(minnesota). i just want to make sure this is the right decision, and that we aint just jumping into something we aren't prepared for, I don't like jumping the gun on things when it's time to be logical...and rational.

I feel like we can still make it here even though it's tough. But idk, who knows right?

well not much to say here...wish me luck tomorrow.

Hello Monday!

So, monthly visit it almost over!! YAY, big dueces up to mother nature!! As you know, i had my womanly thang going on this week, and because of it...the scale has not gone down at all. BUT! good news...i measured my wasitline on thurs and as of today i have gone down 1 and 1/2 inches!! whoo hoo!! So, im assuming people are right when they say its not all on the scale, sometimes you could be losing inches without even realizing it, especially with your eyes glued to the stupid scale all the time. So, no pounds went down, but im koo coz all i know is my tummy just went down.

I admit, last night i ate something bad from mcdonalds, i had a grilled snack wrap but then brian got a extra mcdouble...and it tempted me to eat it coz he said it was mine, i guess forgetting im on a diet.

 i guess that means extra excercise today. Other than that, i been so good, im proud of my damn self.

Im trying to lose 9 inches off my waist....If i do that, oh man fuck the scale.

Lately, i been so stressed out because i haven't found a job. i lost my job in february, i applied at over 25 jobs and only got one callback and its not even what i would even want to attempt to do, but at this point im so desperate i would take anything. I just hope he calls me back today for a decent interview and not just over the phone chatter. 

If that all fails, GOODBYE MAUI, and HELLO MINNESOTA.

What to at what to eat....

So i know ur not supposed to starve yourself, and hell naw i aint gonna go through that extreme...

But its 3:06 and i just realized i didn't even eat lunch or had my snack yet. I just finished working out. did hip hop abs, jump roped for about 5 mins to warm up for boxing and spared with my boxing bag for ten minutes.

I had 2 boiled eggs this morning, only ate one yolk and a slice of wheat toast and green tea.
I think its about that time i eat my grandma's stuffed cabbage soon, its pretty healthy...lean ground beef, cabbage, tomatoes, cilantro....but im trying to do the whole portion control thing, which is the size of a small salad plate.

I'm only my monthly visit, which for all us women, we know what that equals to = BLOATING! and WATER WEIGHT. Yuck, pisses me off. but once this bitch period is over that scale and measuring tape better reduce.

OKAY..........so i didn't eat grannies stuffed cabbage...i opted for a lean cuisine meal. 270 calories...it was pretty tasty. and im surprisingly "full", i saved the stuffed cabbage for brian when he gets home...im always so thoughtful like that. lol.

btw this is my handsome bf.....
isn't he a keeper?
i guess i better keep my ass in shape huh. 

Say Whaa....

So, I got introduced to this blogging thing...from a friend that i seen was losing weight. And i was like hot damn, wth am i doing sitting on my ass all day and not doing shiznet about myself. So, i started my Diet on Tues April 5th, 2011. I am at the heaviest I've ever been in my life and it's a scary thing...it literally freaks me out. I've always been on the thicker side i guess but hell naw not like this.

Weight has been a roller coaster ride for me, i can gain and lose and regain. I've read ever diet book under the sun, tried so many different diet plans. And one thing I've learned is...basically just eat right and excercise and boom! changes are made, it's really not that complicated. I think we just lose MOTIVATION so much, and that's what makes us fall off the bandwagon.

I also went through a huge breakup a yr ago, and thats when the pounds really crept up on me, i would not wanna leave my house and stay in and when i was bored...hmm what did u think i did? EAT and feed my fat ass. When i should've been like...fuck this imma get my revenge and show em what he's missing...BWAHa yea righttt.....

But i got a new boyfriend now ^_^ Life has surely been a whirlwind for me...Im Happy, but i see myself getting way to comfortable...and i'm not liking that i weight just as much as my bf...Which i may add ( he is taller and muscular) wtf am i doing weighing the same as him?

GOALS:

I know what i look like when im thinner....you would think for a 4'11 girl i would have to be 90-110 right? believe it or not when i was thin...i was actually 125. FOR XAMPLE: yeah im the second one from the left. If i could just look like that again, that would be dope and i would be satisfied. Im sure my bf brian wouldn't mind either lol.